I fear that the sunrise will come too soon and you'll disappear into the haze of the city

I finally realized what my problem is, it's the fact that I am too nice, I let people back in my life that I never should have talked to that first day so many months or years ago. I am the better person in most of my relationships, I am the better friend in the friendships I have. I don't just talk, I mostly listen. I don't break plans, I'm not secretive or conniving, I'm respectful and I will tell you my honest opinion without inflicting any pain at all. I guess I'm one of kind, I must be the only one. I understand you can't go through life as a hermit, interactions and relationships are important if you want survive. I hate that the one thing you want to be normal you won't even consider working at. Where did the compromise go? I just had a conversation with myself out loud and I talked about how I have no conscience when it comes to you, I don't feel an ounce of regret, at this point I am going to do what I have to do in order to keep my sanity, I deserve to be happy. What you don't deserve is my time. I used to consider you one of the best things that ever happened to me but I guess time happens, some of us grow up and we know who has our best interest in mind. Others are still trying to impress people who don't give a fuck. What happened to the girl with the bright eyes and who cared more about friendships than keeping up with the joneses? I never thought I would say this, but I have to agree that the city has changed you. I have to say I've never seen you look so good, but it kills me that you are putting up fronts. Stop worrying and let what will be, just be.