And it's weird because you think that things are going well, and they are. You feel safe and calm, there aren't any thoughts interrupting you from falling into bed. Your heads hits the pillow and you sleep through the night. And then like a silent storm it consumes you. There are times when things are so beyond your control that you feel lost, the tide swallows you up. And it will continue to overtake you unless you refocus and put on a tough front. It's just so strange to me that one small event alters everything, it alters my future. I'm honestly trying not to get too far ahead of myself, but it's pretty difficult. I just gotta keep hanging on, cus it's all I've got.Just know that after I am tormented by these little horrible terribles I think of you and everything is alright, it's gonna be alright because you're by my side.
