For a minute there I lost myself

I lost consciousness in yours arms, how?
I have no recollections.
I remember you carrying me to the shower and holding me up, I couldn't stand on my own.
I was shaking, and everything was blurring.
Images, your face, your voice, I couldn't understand anything.
Somewhere distantly I heard you saying my name, you kept saying my name.
I never want to feel like that again, to not be able to feel, or see, or touch you.
Sometimes I think you truly are the best parts of me.

battlewounds.

Hands in the dark, hands over my face. I want to curl up next you and just forget this. I want to forget the last two years and all that I wasted my time on. I didn't want to smell like him, so I scrubbed my skin raw. I hugged my knees and I bit down hard on my lower lip. I just wish that I could disappear sometimes. Or maybe I could just take that flight across the country, maybe that's how far I need to distance myself. 3,000 miles would surely be enough. I want to wake up in the morning pretending it never happened, but that's not realistic at all. I just wish you were here.