the fixer

"So leave out the others baby
And say I'm the only one
Cut out the uniforms and settle with the sun
Hey I want you to know
Cos I wanna know
And it's a strange condition
And life in prison
It's got me outta my head
And I don't know what I came for..."

Last night I heard you whispering it in your sleep, I think you feel it too.
How is it possible that I can miss you already?

Folkloric Feelings

And it took me so long to realize that I was better off, what an eregious mistake.

It's such a serene feeling to have, to be emersed in everything that I am, with you.

I feel like I could really learn how to feel with you, because the truth is I hate missing you.

I hate feeling so much for you all at once, you make everything real.

And to be quite honest, that's really fucking frightening.

You spend so much time telling yourself not to feel a certain way that you forget what it was like to feel in the first place.

You forget how to cry, or even when it's appropriate to cry.

Your laugh becomes forced, your smile practiced too many times that it almost looks painful with too much gum showing.

You start believing that that is all you deserve, you have the kind of love you think you deserve.

And the day you talk to someone who changes all of that, you really start living.

You open yours eyes in the morning without regretting it instantly and you pause to 'appreciate' the little things.

You could spend hours sleeping on a concave chest because well it's copacetic.

But, it's better than that.

at the time I thought it was for your own good but it was just for my own mind

"Cause when it's good
it's really good
But when it's bad
well, you know how it goes
'Cause we are alone
when we are together
We're each inside our own heads
we can be like this for hours
And we can be good, yeah
if we want to be good
If we try, I know that we can be good" Via Audio - We Can Be Good

This feeling, this feeling of feeling so much at one time is what I've been trying to get back to for over 2 years, this is what I want.







I'm always staring at your smile.