It's been awhile

I haven't written in awhile not even in my paper journals because I've been working and in the process of moving into my new apartment!

You stayed with me even after you were gone I saw you in my dreams, I saw you in the reflection of the water and I could've sworn it was real. I missed you so much it was starting to eat at me, I literally could not shut my eyes without replaying that Sunday and start to drift off. I don' know what things will be like when you come home, will you still be one of the best friends I have ever had? Or will we pretend that this whole year didn't happen? That you weren't my shoulder to lean on, that I wasn't the one person you told all your secrets to. It's so hard losing friends and even still heartbreaking when you lose a great friend. Someone who gives you as much as you give them, and you don't feel slighted for once.

sentimental

It's a metaphor for our whole relationship, whether friends, on whatever terms
I am just about to get out and you pull me back in, sealing the deal with a kiss.
I won't fight it, can't even imagine trying to fight you off and certainly don't want to.
The more we talk the more I'm convinced you are a science experiment, you have no flaws.
Just take me anywhere with you, push the cd in, close my eyes and roll down all the windows, letting the cool air flood the car, your hot breath in my ear. Where else would I want to be?

So sentimental.