Never meant

I'm writing to be honest and because I am anxious and excited. This year is all about risking it and stepping out of my boundaries and it's pretty safe to say that I am doing just that. I can't wait for the road trip on a whim I'm going on with Julie, who knows maybe we'll end up in Mass., maybe in Rhode Island or maybe well just get lost and laugh a lot. I am really trying to have a good year and not let anything or anyone get in the way of that. I plan on taking thousands of pictures, a few dozen rolls of film and just living and breathing happiness. I love American Football and I can't stop listening to Never Meant. I love fall, god I love waking up to these cold mornings, I love swim practice and I love running at night. Despite the utter bullshit that has been going, it really isn't bringing me down, it doesn't even make a difference. I just don't give a fuck about any of it, because no good deed goes unpunished.


"I just think its best
Because you cant miss what you forget

So let's just pretend
Everything and
Anything, between you and me
Was never meant

Was Never Meant"

If I kiss you where it hurts would you feel better, better, better at all

Tonight was officially the last night of summer, it's sort of strange to be honest. I don't see myself actually going to classes tomorrow morning. But, unfortunately I will be in a statistics class at 9:30 am wondering why I decided taking this class was a good idea. I am seeing someone I haven't seen in a month on Tuesday for reasons I can't even tell you. It should be interesting and uncomfortable, but I'm still optimistic about it. I finger the bracelets on my right wrist, my only visible attachment left from summer other than my tan. I don't want it to end, but really I should sleep and not think about you anymore than I already am.