"Lately, I don't get lost in daydreams I never lay awake at night staring in my bed and I don't think about your face or anything you've said and I don't think twice when someone says your name or twist my mind in circles wondering which of us to blame."
I hate waking up the way I did, with the morning light burning my eyes and filling the whole room causing me to wake up way too early. I hate going to bed at 6 in the morning because my thoughts won't stop, and all I can think about is just sleeping next to someone and having that be enough. I'm living alone, I'm living alone, I don't need you anymore, I don't need you anymore. And I've learned not to breakdown when someone says your name, but I still miss you like none other. I was sitting up last night just thinking about how different it was between us, and how much I hate normal social interactions. I thought about the night where you held me for hours with my head buried in your chest and the wind whipping at our faces. You weren't the type of person to ever pull at my hands.
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