Yes I am guilty of this you should know this

I honestly think I am looking for every excuse no matter how minuscule to just let myself not feel something again. Which in turn scares me twice as much as the original situation because I don't want to be so nervous and looking back on the past that I miss all the good right in front of me. I never want to be that person that is so stuck in everything that's already happened, that they forget to live.

I guess I'm just going to have to trust you.